As a lay here on my bed at home, I find myself wondering if I have made the right decision in regards to my weight loss surgery.
I am aware of the life changing effects this surgery will have on not only my weight but also my overall physical and mental health. I find myself questioning if this is indeed, the right step to take.
But, while I question myself on this decision I also am very much aware that I am getting older and every year that goes by, weight loss get harder to accomplish and pursue. My weight is affecting my quality of life and it is simply not fair.
I want to enjoy more of my life, we are living in a time when society is more accepting of our decisions and choices. It is a time to let lose and truly give in to live life.
More and more I think about decisions I made when I was younger, decisions not made on my happiness and desires but rather, decisions made to please others. And I regret many of them. I wish I had had the freedom that society has accepted and adopted today.
And yet, I am afraid. I have been struggling with the decision of whether I would share my decision with friends and family to have bariatric surgery. One thing I do know is that even though society has morphed and come a long way from years past, there is still a stigma that follows those of us that are considering or have had bariatric surgery as being lazy and glutons.
I wish it wouldn’t be something to look down on but alas! Here we are in 2020 and still judging others based on weight and then judging on the decision to have surgery as a “quick, easy way”, let me tell you that there’s nothing easy about this procedure or the life changing effects that follow it.
I will be documenting my own journey, I feel that I have to be able to see my progress from the beginning in order to give me the strength that I know I will need in the future. I will need to remind myself why I have chosen to do this and why I have to keep up with new healthy habits.
Wish me luck on my journey and pray for me, it will not be easy. Send me your positive vibes and stay tuned for my next blog.
Thank you for reading!
With luv,
Mrs Jones
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