Lil Money, Big Goals

Plan, Plan, Plan…

Long time no post. Yup, I’ve been missing in action. Too much going on, life has been busy. Im lying, I’ve been working like crazy. Too much. And it’s taken a toll on my mood and hobbies.

I’m not sure what your life looks like but let me tell you, mine has been crazy. And not only crazy but stressful. Ever since I became separated I’ve been focused on setting and achieving my goals. And now I feel overwhelmed. Extremely overwhelmed because I am trying to accomplish alot with very little.

My goals? Higher credit score, debt payoff and a better paying job. Oh yeah, and finish school. And all of this while keeping up with my bills and sanity.

Im currently debating whether I should invest on a resume writter. I feel like the chances of landing a better job rest on a good and updated resume. What do you think? Is it worth it?

I consider this an investment because it’s the only way I can justify such an expense. I am not joking when I say that I live by my budget. I’m not playing about my goals and so every penny counts. But Lord, it’s hard. Im sure I’m not the only one going through this so if you’re on a budget then you know how difficult it is to justify the expenditure of unplanned costs. It’s a pain.

Because of this stress, I have been focused on working and saving my money so as to be able to deal with unexpected costs (investments). And due to this, I’ve been away from my blog. Plus, I get tired of the random messages about follows/creepy requests so I kinda stayed away from the scene.

Tonight though, it felt like a night to type a few words together and let my mind speak for itself. My brain is overworked and tired. My body is tired, hell my soul is tired.

I don’t know where you are on your journey but let me say this: you got this, we got this. The trick is to remain focused and positive. While there’s alot to deal with, there’s still alot more to be thankful for. So just take a deep breath and get it done.

Til next time, stay safe and kind.

MJ Jones

Warm Rain During Winter & my Crappy Mood

Good grief! This weather is driving me nuts. It has me feeling emotional and depressed.

We all know that one of the things that brightens our days is well, daylight. Sunlight more specifically. I need sunny days to feel better and right now, the weather is just not my friend. I know I sound petulant but if you suffer or have ever suffered from depression then you understand where I’m coming from, right now at this moment I wish I could clear the clouds and let the sunrays through. Literally.

With the recent changes in my life and relationship, the last thing I need is to feel down or withdrawn. Yesterday I pushed through it but today, I just gave up. Its too much. I find myself battling anger and tears and frustration. I am upset about everything and nothing. I am fully aware that this is temporary but it sucks. I have no desire or energy to do a single thing.

Thankfully, I managed to finish my homework earlier today and just in time because if I had waited to do my homework “later” I would be screwed right now. I suppose my mind knew this was coming and somehow convinced me to get ahead of the game. Glad I listened to my brain.

Now, I am not down in a way that may worry people around me, no. I am just feeling way off and not right. It will pass but in the meantime I feel trapped in my head with myself and whatever emotions I have been bottling up for weeks. And trust me, its a lot to deal with at the moment.

While I do love winter and its grey days, this rain just throws me off. Plus, its not even really cold so I think that’s another reason why its just not working for me. Its grey, wet and somewhat warmish. Its yucky and just nasty. Can the day just be over? Let’s just start a new one already.

Anyways, I am going to try and get some exercise in, I feel that it just may help my mood (Endorphins and all that). I will do a quick workout, take a bath (not a shower) with my favorite bath bombs and bath bars and just let my mind calm down. I should also read a book while drinking a hot cuppa.

Thanks for reading my post and hope your day is going better than mine, truly. Take care and remember to do the things that make you happy.

“To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance” Oscar Wilde

MJ Jones